Commitments

For the few people that follow my blog, you may have noticed that my posts have become more and more infrequent. I don't feel it's necessary that I justify not writing, but I would like to merely say that it's not because I don't enjoy it.

That's the thing... I really do like writing on here... that is.. when I have topics to write about. Also, the fact that very few people even notice if I put up a new post gives me justification for putting off writing. For something like a blog, it is easy to procrastinate to the point of not writing at all.

Why have I not been writing? Do I even enjoy it? I'm not doing this for anybody else...

I haven't been writing because there are often other things that are bigger priorities. These include... well most things actually. Working out, working, seeing friends, sleeping, eating, reading, and even watching tv are all higher on my "to do" list than blogging. I do enjoy it, and if I were writing for other people's enjoyment, I would be more likely to write more often.

I would say part of this comes down to commitment issues. I spent a huge amount of high school battling with whether or not I wanted commitments (other than school work) in my life. Since I am a perfectionist, I often worry about overcrowding my schedule or doing too many things because I don't want to get stressed out. What I've learned is that, in fact, I do better with a lot on my agenda. I don't mean that I like every minute scheduled, but I would rather have an extracurricular activity than an hour in its place to watch trashy television.

Back to blogging, I guess I really just need to commit to it to do it. Part of me doesn't want to commit, though.
AGH.

Does it make me happy? Sort of...